Followers
Thursday, 28 April 2011
Things I have heard and thought were AWESOME!! (or really REALLY weird)
"Ha ha you fail,"
"Yeah so did your dad's condom"
"I was so enchanted by your beauty that I ran into that wall over there. So I am going to need your name and number for insurance purposes."
Me: So how are you?
Friend: I'm good thanks, one second, Abbie stop putting smudge in the computer!! Okay I'm back
Me: ...
Boy1: Men should have the right to hit women,
Me: Are you serious?
Boy2: If that happened you would be black and blue by the end of the day.
I have genuinely heard some one say everyone of these...
1500 metres
(By the way I did the 1500 metres in 9:18 minutes :) )
Wednesday, 27 April 2011
You
Monday, 25 April 2011
My Dog Dennis :)
My Dog Dennis is the most oddest dog I think I have ever had. He's a Springer Spaniel, and he's black with white splodges now and then on his back. He like to lick my feet and chew my hair but love him even though he does. We don't get any post anymore because someone gets the nibbles on a morning, so we have to everything over the internet. He is terrible when I try to walk him, or if anyone tries to walk him for that matter. He's just one big lovable, slightly annoying, bundle of joy. BUT I LOVE HIM ANYWAY!!
Sunday, 24 April 2011
Happy :)
Today I'm feeling quite happy, for no reason what so ever. Everything is the same as it was a few days ago, except maybe mum and connor are talking, but apart from that nothing else has changed. I can't quite figure it out. Maybe it's good I'm just happy, there is no cause to my happiness and that's good. I hope it is. My dog Dennis keeps liking my feet and tormenting my dad so this makes me laugh. Looking at it I don't think there is a lot wrong with my life reading other peoples blogs have made me realise, I'm really lucky to be who I am. But even though my problems weren't as big as everyone elses some of you listened and that's not something I can say about some of the friends I live with everyday so thank you. I'm gointo have a nice Easter day being happy :)
Wednesday, 20 April 2011
LIARS!!
Lie No.1. Eat your carrots, they make you see in the dark.
No they don't! It's just something parents know a kid will want to be able to do, how does a carrot even resemble seeing in the dark?
Lie No.2 If you eat your crushs it will make your hair go curly.
But I out smarted you all!! "But mummy I want my hair to be straight, not curly."
Lie No.3 You are what you eat.
You say this to a little girl when she won't eat ham shaped like a dinosaur, she is then going to eat the dinosaur isn't she?
I for one think whoever came up with these lies is genius, but parents tell their children not to lie so who is really in the wrong? The kid who won't eat their food or the lying parent?
Tuesday, 19 April 2011
No one understands how much strain this puts on me. Even though I'm not directly involved, I am still there, in the firing line. Connor might be sorted but that won't last for long, soon enough a new disagreement will emerge and all this will break out again. I don't think anyone truelly knows how I feel. How much I hurt. Because I don't truelly have some one to talk to, no one I trust with the whole story, I don't ever say everything. But I feel I can here because no one knows me the way other people think they do.
My brother left last year to go and live with my dad, he packed and left. But even now, sometimes I come home expecting him to be there, so I run upstairs to find his blue room yellow and all my clothes in the wardrobe instead of his. And the upset of the night he left comes back, I used to cry but I don't anymore. I haven't done that for a while now but it still happens. Ever since Connor left nothing has been the same, we've adapted but it will never be the same again I don't think.
Monday, 18 April 2011
Forever
Nothing is ever going to be okay again. There will always be this in there way. Everyone says " it will sort itself out," but it never does. No one understands IT NEVER DOES. People think it has but it hasn't. They said that when he left, well its been a year, he's still at dads, and he is never coming home. And he never will come home if this is the way you treat him.
I wanted one day, just one day to be about me and my unit winning, without arguments and dirty looks, but I couldn't even have that. You left when we started. You weren't there in the church. And when we win you were screaming at each other. So even if you hadn't banned him from the house, I really don't think he would have been coming anyway. He hasn't come for weeks, the only time he has come is with dad to get me, what does that tell you?
I can't talk to anyone. Anyone I talk to will be affended. So I'm talking here and to anyone who has the time to listen, because here is the only place where people don't know me or my family, so I hope some one listens.
Monday, 11 April 2011
Odd but lovely
I had the most oddest experience. Odd but lovely. It made me forget about the boy who called me names and made fun of me, no this was nice. I spent about 5 hours talking to a boy I've only met a few times, I was expecting the conversation to last about 5 minutes talking about my friends sleepover we're both going to. But no we had too much in common to let it rest. We spoke for 5 hours about everything we knew, I'm actually pretty sure we were tracked by MI6 a couple of times. But I'm looking forward to the sleepover more then I was before now.
Friday, 8 April 2011
Alone
I dont understand why I feel alone but I do. People are around me constantly but I'm not as close as I would like to be with any of them. People try to get close but I put up my walls to block them out, and the one time I let them down it gets thrown back in my face. What does this show me that I should constantly have my walls up to block out the pain? But then I would never get any where, maybe that's what I should do, stay like this forever, never changing, never moving. Alone forever.
Worthless
Thats is how I feel. Worthless. Your nice to me and I really liked you, I thought we might have had something. I guess not. I try and make myself look nice and what did you say? Oh yes I remember, how could I forget? A mong. A MONG ISN'T EVEN A WORD!! All I did was put eye liner and and blusher on. NO ONE EVEN NOTICED!! You did something I thought wasn't possible you made my self estime lower then it already was. So congratulations you made me feel terrible I hope you got what you were looking for, because I'm going to give you a bit of a warning not many people get, consider it my kiss of death, you just messed with the wrong girl and her friends. Watch out a bus load of karma is coming your way.
Thursday, 7 April 2011
Learning lines
I've got an exam in two days and I have to learn two monologes (and for people who don't know a monologe is a page long speech) so wish me luck. One is about the white witch i'm sure you all know her and the other is Dora from Daun French's book a tiny bit marvelous. I prefer Dora because I get to rant about my mum and swear. This makes me smile :)
Everything's gonna be ok
Everything's gonna be ok. Shes getting help and she knows she's got us. You can never imagine unless you've seen, how scared her eyes looked, the pain and the anger that filled them. She didnt want to go but I made her, I was getting her help. Who knew what another day could have done, if she almost did it last night, who knew what she could have done tonight?
Friday, 1 April 2011
Buses!
I have just missed my bus! Im sure the bus company has it out to get me, they wait and as they see me leaving my house GOGOGO!! And I miss the bus yipee!! Now its raining and I have to wait half an hour. Lucky. Me -_-