My Perfect Night!!

This is my perfect night:
Music so loud it drowns out every thought I could ever have,
Thoughts about useless and judgementle friends.
Thoughts about boys who can be so nice one minute and complete ARSEHOLES the next!!
No more people thinking of you as beneath them,
No more people who don't know everything so judge you on what they do know.
Fast music to stop me punching something...
What a lovely Perfect Night!!!!!

A love you can't fall in love with...

I'm not too sure if it's possible, but I've fallen in love with fictional character. I know this makes me sound beyond sad but I don't care. It's character called Theo from the books blood ties and blood ransom by Sophie McKenzie, and Theo is unbelievably cute. In the second book blood ransom Theo think Rachel has killed herself so he travels across the whole world because he doesn't believe that she is. If anyone needs a book to read I would recommend these books to everyone I met. You will not be disappointed.

THE MOST AWESOME BOOKS IN THE WORLD!!

Fit guy outside shuh...

Well...
In the Trafford Centre today with my friend. We walk past shuh and some fit guy was sat there looking all depressed outside. So after the third time we walk past, I look behind me. Fit guy is gone. "Where'd he go?" Turn round and fit guy is looking very scared... Fit guy walks away quickly in the other direction. It was fun while it lasted fit guy... which may have been ten minutes... but it was still fun...

Hello

Well, I had to change everything about my blog, including the name Random Girl Adventures which I really liked, because a boy from my school is trying to find me so I'm running away, because I don't want anyone I know to find me on here because this is where I can be free. Sorry if it's confuzzling and you thought who's this randomer....
My blog is annoying me because every time I change something on it, on my blog it looks like I'm not signed in but evidently I am, I also can't leave comments on people blogs, which is annoying. So yeah. Not the best post I've ever written but you know. Just thought I'd let you know :)

Heels over head

Its been beautiful weather here in the north of england. It has been for a few days. Its the perfect time to just wander through the streets with your friends, to just talk and mess about. It brought me and my friends to a park we had so much fun climbing and jumping and just genuinly being us!

Yorksquire!!

I went to Yorkshire with my school today and I had the best time that I've had in a long time. Only me, Sammie and Beckie went from our year so it was actually hilarious! We went to do the RHS garden thingy and our garden was themed around Alice in Wonderland!! It even had a Mad Hatter's Tea Party, because we are just that awesome!!

We went to the tea stop called Betty's and I got a carrot cake and a cup of tea, which I spilt everywhere on the coach going over the speed bumps. I had such a good day and then we had to come back it made me really sad to come home...



Waiting For December

When I was younger I was really close to a boy called Adam, his mum was my mum's best friend. He moved away to Australia with his mum and younger brother. We used to email each other, but as we grew up we stopped talking. I haven't spoke to him in five or six years, and now he's coming back this December, I'm really looking forward to seeing him again. I wonder if we will get along like we used to, what happens if he doesn't like me? I wonder what he'll think about me, like how I look and what I'm like. I wonder if he'll think I'm pretty... I hope he does... We'll have to wait and see...

This I must say...

I am very sad you have a girlfriend waiting for you when you leave. I thought I was getting to know you but never mind, believe me she's a lucky girl. We really got along so you never know, if it doesn't turn out with this girl, I'll be waiting...

On Top Of The World!

I feel so happy for no reason what so ever. Everyone ignores me, until I open my mouth and make them listen. I am so tired from everything that I do in everyday life, but I just brush it off and smile. I've taken a new look on life, instead of wanting to shoot something, I give a cheeky smile and a little giggle. It seems to be working. So if anyone wants to join me, I'm spending tonight on top of the world!!

My messed up life theory

Right okay, when we are awake another world is asleep, therefore when we are asleep they are awake. When we die we go to the other world and when people fro the other world dies they come here. Also if we can not touch, smell, hear, see, taste or have a memory of them that object is not real. When we are reborn in the other world we can't remember this world.

There is no evidence that proves my theory is incorrect so...

The balance of life

Okay this is how it is, I have never kissed a boy or had a boyfriend. A girl in my year has just had sex... how is that balanced? It is disgusting what she did, partly because of her age and partly because she came in today screaming at the top of her lungs "I HAD SEX LAST WEEKEND!" You just wouldn't, it's so wrong.

I HATE MY FORM!! Do you ever have days when you just want to shoot people? I think I will load my shot gun, im no genius but I think you should run.

Owee!!

I just got my HIV jab and my arm REALLY hurts. This is my last one so that's okay, but this one was the worst!! It made me feel like I was going to vomit and it makes my arm stiff. I hate jabs :(

Best frinds

We were best friends, or so I thought. We were like sisters, we came as a package and everyone knew that. What happened? So what we go to different schools but that doesn't matter if we still want to be friends we should find time to hang out. Everytime I call you just don't seem bothered or interested about coming out, maybe you don't want to be friends anymore, I would be fine with that, yeah I'm not going to lie it would hurt a lot but it would be okay. Have I done something wrong? Did I hurt you? Because if I did I'm sorry I didn't mean to but is it really worth throwing our whole friendship away for? I think when you see me you just dont want to, like you don't even want to look at me, I'm know I'm pretty complicated myself but I just wish we could go back to the way we were. I really need you in my life again because you are the only one I can trust with everything I have. I just need you.

Awkward

A couple of weeks ago I went to my friends sleepover, and before that I was talking to my friends friend ( yes i know confusing) anyway I was just trying to be friends with him because I already liked some one, and I think he's got the wrong idea. Now he keeps trying to talk to me, but it's really awkward because I don't like him and I think he likes me, and he keeps asking for my phone number and stuff but I don't want to give it to him. I don't hate him or anything I just don't really want to talk to him because it's so awkward, and I don't want to be mean or anything, but I'm just sorta ignoring him and all his messages. My friend asks aswell about why I'm not talking to him, but I don't know what to do. I'm probably over reacting.

Things I have heard and thought were AWESOME!! (or really REALLY weird)

"A punch in the boob is like a kick in the ball. So you thought punching me was funny well it's going to be hilarious when I knee you in the balls!! I suggest you run."

"Ha ha you fail,"
"Yeah so did your dad's condom"

"I was so enchanted by your beauty that I ran into that wall over there. So I am going to need your name and number for insurance purposes."

Me: So how are you?
Friend: I'm good thanks, one second, Abbie stop putting smudge in the computer!! Okay I'm back
Me: ...

Boy1: Men should have the right to hit women,
Me: Are you serious?
Boy2: If that happened you would be black and blue by the end of the day.

I have genuinely heard some one say everyone of these...

1500 metres

Yes, I have just ran 1500 metres without my inhaler. You better be bloody impressed because if your not I'll cry. It took a lot of effort and cursing the P.E department, what sicko came up with the 1500 metres anyway, I bet they were sat there "hmm... I want to come up with a sport which will inflict a huge amount of pain onto anyone who does it.... I know... they could throw spikes at each other... no wait I think I will get arrested. Hmm.... I know lets make kids run 1500 metre!! They'll hate it and everyone can laugh at the person who comes last!! It's brilliant!!" I hat this human being, if you could call them a human being for creating this torture. My P.E teacher said after we did it "Well done, you've gained an important life skill..." NO I HAVEN'T!! When am I ever going to need to run 1500 metre, unless I want to be an athlete, which I don't so it was piontless making me do it. They should ask who wants to do it and then they can do it, not someone who can't run and looks like a kangeroo with too many kids in there pouch trying to jump away from something trying each them!! As you can see I don't really like P.E never have never will, and people say it's just because I'm un-fit, no it's not it's because I'm rubbish at all of it and I don't particually want to do it, yes I may be un-fit but at least I'm happy, I do my bare minimum and yes I suck at it, but at least I actually do it, you would all complain more if I just didn't because we would never get anywhere. So I think I will continue at doing what I do best, sucking at P.E.

(By the way I did the 1500 metres in 9:18 minutes :) )

I'm Selfish
 Impatient
 And a little
 insecure................
I make mistakes
I am out of control and at times
hard to handle
but if you can't handle me at my
worst
then you absolutely don't deserve

me at my best

You

Everything reminds me of you. It's getting on my nerves now!! Even though I don't think you like me at all, in fact I think you hate me, but I don't care. I love the way you make me laugh until my sides hurt, and we can have a joke, I'm one of the girls who will fight back even though I like you. I wish you could see me outside school though, to see how cool I can be, how I dress and how I act, because we're all the same in school. My friends say that you like me because you like me but that rubbish, THAT'S NOT HOW YOU GET A GIRL ATTENTION!! Maybe you think you can treat me like this now, but in a few years time when you want a girlfriend you think I will just come running, well think again because you can GO TO HELL. I am not some one can string along if you think that you've got another thing coming. So do me one favor before I go, GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!

My Dog Dennis :)

My Dog Dennis is the most oddest dog I think I have ever had. He's a Springer Spaniel, and he's black with white splodges now and then on his back. He like to lick my feet and chew my hair but love him even though he does. We don't get any post anymore because someone gets the nibbles on a morning, so we have to everything over the internet. He is terrible when I try to walk him, or if anyone tries to walk him for that matter. He's just one big lovable, slightly annoying, bundle of joy. BUT I LOVE HIM ANYWAY!!

Happy :)

Today I'm feeling quite happy, for no reason what so ever. Everything is the same as it was a few days ago, except maybe mum and connor are talking, but apart from that nothing else has changed. I can't quite figure it out. Maybe it's good I'm just happy, there is no cause to my happiness and that's good. I hope it is.  My dog Dennis keeps liking my feet and tormenting my dad so this makes me laugh. Looking at it I don't think there is a lot wrong with my life reading other peoples blogs have made me realise,  I'm really lucky to be who I am. But even though my problems weren't as big as everyone elses some of you listened and that's not something I can say about some of the friends I live with everyday so thank you. I'm gointo have a nice Easter day being happy :)

LIARS!!

People lie to children constantly. My mum used to lie to me all the time to get me to eat my food.

Lie No.1. Eat your carrots, they make you see in the dark.
No they don't! It's just something parents know a kid will want to be able to do, how does a carrot even resemble seeing in the dark?

Lie No.2 If you eat your crushs it will make your hair go curly.
But I out smarted you all!! "But mummy I want my hair to be straight, not curly."

Lie No.3 You are what you eat.
You say this to a little girl when she won't eat ham shaped like a dinosaur, she is then going to eat the dinosaur isn't she?

I for one think whoever came up with these lies is genius, but parents tell their children not to lie so who is really in the wrong? The kid who won't eat their food or the lying parent?

No one understands how much strain this puts on me. Even though I'm not directly involved, I am still there, in the firing line. Connor might be sorted but that won't last for long, soon enough a new disagreement will emerge and all this will break out again. I don't think anyone truelly knows how I feel. How much I hurt. Because I don't truelly have some one to talk to, no one I trust with the whole story, I don't ever say everything. But I feel I can here because no one knows me the way other people think they do.
My brother left last year to go and live with my dad, he packed and left. But even now, sometimes I come home expecting him to be there, so I run upstairs to find his blue room yellow and all my clothes in the wardrobe instead of his. And the upset of the night he left comes back, I used to cry but I don't anymore. I haven't done that for a while now but it still happens. Ever since Connor left nothing has been the same, we've adapted but it will never be the same again I don't think.

Forever

Nothing is ever going to be okay again. There will always be this in there way. Everyone says " it will sort itself out," but it never does. No one understands IT NEVER DOES. People think it has but it hasn't. They said that when he left, well its been a year, he's still at dads, and he is never coming home. And he never will come home if this is the way you treat him.
I wanted one day, just one day to be about me and my unit winning, without arguments and dirty looks, but I couldn't even have that. You left when we started. You weren't there in the church. And when we win you were screaming at each other. So even if you hadn't banned him from the house, I really don't think he would have been coming anyway. He hasn't come for weeks, the only time he has come is with dad to get me, what does that tell you?
I can't talk to anyone. Anyone I talk to will be affended. So I'm talking here and to anyone who has the time to listen, because here is the only place where people don't know me or my family, so I hope some one listens.

Odd but lovely

I had the most oddest experience. Odd but lovely. It made me forget about the boy who called me names and made fun of me, no this was nice. I spent about 5 hours talking to a boy I've only met a few times, I was expecting the conversation to last about 5 minutes talking about my friends sleepover we're both going to. But no we had too much in common to let it rest. We spoke for 5 hours about everything we knew, I'm actually pretty sure we were tracked by MI6 a couple of times. But I'm looking forward to the sleepover more then I was before now.

Alone

I dont understand why I feel alone but I do. People are around me constantly but I'm not as close as I would like to be with any of them. People try to get close but I put up my walls to block them out, and the one time I let them down it gets thrown back in my face. What does this show me that I should constantly have my walls up to block out the pain? But then I would never get any where, maybe that's what I should do, stay like this forever, never changing, never moving. Alone forever.

Worthless

Thats is how I feel. Worthless. Your nice to me and I really liked you, I thought we might have had something. I guess not. I try and make myself look nice and what did you say? Oh yes I remember, how could I forget? A mong. A MONG ISN'T EVEN A WORD!! All I did was put eye liner and and blusher on. NO ONE EVEN NOTICED!! You did something I thought wasn't possible you made my self estime lower then it already was. So congratulations you made me feel terrible I hope you got what you were looking for, because I'm going to give you a bit of a warning not many people get, consider it my kiss of death, you just messed with the wrong girl and her friends. Watch out a bus load of karma is coming your way.

Learning lines

I've got an exam in two days and I have to learn two monologes (and for people who don't know a monologe is a page long speech) so wish me luck. One is about the white witch i'm sure you all know her and the other is Dora from Daun French's book a tiny bit marvelous. I prefer Dora because I get to rant about my mum and swear. This makes me smile :)

Everything's gonna be ok

Everything's gonna be ok. Shes getting help and she knows she's got us. You can never imagine unless you've seen, how scared her eyes looked, the pain and the anger that filled them. She didnt want to go but I made her, I was getting her help. Who knew what another day could have done, if she almost did it last night, who knew what she could have done tonight?

Buses!

I have just missed my bus! Im sure the bus company has it out to get me, they wait and as they see me leaving my house GOGOGO!! And I miss the bus yipee!! Now its raining and I have to wait half an hour. Lucky. Me -_-

THE WIND IS NOT YOUR FRIEND!!!

The wind is a perve! Your in your school and you walk outside and woosh! Lets look at a unexpected girls underwear! Point proven the wind is a perve!

TAYLOR SWIFT!!!

Well, I thought you might want to now I'M GOING TO SEE TAYLOR SWIFT TONIGHT!!!! At the moment my hair is wet and stuck to my face I'm just about to dry it, meanwhile taylor's songs are blasting out of my speakers. I'm so excited I actually love her, I think I'm going to buy a t-shirt :) People need to understand that Taylor understands everything that could possibly go wrong in a girls life from boys to frinds and she does it the best way possible, through AWESOME music that everyone can dance to! I'm SO excited!!

Really bored

Seriously I dont normally blog this much but i'm so bored its unbelievable . People are talking to me but im not listening, its nothing that important (I hope) knowing my luck some one will be like "your mum's dead!!" " yh yh I totally understand." I really should listen more, people say "I did tell you," "oh really...."

My form

Well my very hyper, slightly disfunctonal, form. We all sort of fit together in the oddest ways.
Well James is, well im not sure what he's doing to oliver...
Some one just licked my desk while I was sat on it...
One of the girls is biting a boy...
And all this happened before our form tutor gets here...

My new book!! *gasp*

I got a new book called "I know what you did last summer" and by the way you have to say it in a dooms day low voice or it looses the effect, imagine saying it in a high sqeaky pixie voice (its not the same). I told my teacher the title and he was like "you need serious help" which is probobly true. Anyway, its really awrsome but,i dont exactly know what they did last summer yet so stay tuned dun dun duuun...... :)

Understanding

You know that girl you call weird because she uses every chance to laugh? Has it ever crossed your mind that its the only chance she gets. You know that boy you call emo? Suicide is on his mind constantly because of his life. You know that girl you call fat? She hasn't eaten for a week because of the names you call her. Now do you understand?

Secrets

You find somethings as serious as that out and you laugh and judge! You promise you won't, but there you are failing to hide it. I can't believe you, I thought we were friends, I thought you cared about me. I guess I was wrong. Is this how it's going to be from now on then? Well bring it on!

Bus rides

On a bus you sit with random strangers that cough on you and insist on talking to you. Today there is a little screaming down my ear while his mum is on the phone, CONTROL YOUR CHILD!!!!

A Twist On Shakespeare

Is life all a big game? Whether it's a hiding game when you don't won't to be who you are because you're scared of rejection. Or it could be a chasing game, when you see someone you like and you will stop at nothing until you have them. Or it could simply be a hunting, game to find where you belong in this world and to see what you will become. Life is just a game and all we're doing is to try and come out on top...

Sleeping

If sleeping is so important why do we not have more then the bare minimum? Everyone says we should have more sleep but they are the ones taking it from us... Anyway im going to bed so night world...

My First blog

Well... I've given up facebook for lent so this is my alternative, I guess I can see how it goes. I think it will be good that no one knows me on this so it's good because no one can judge me... I don't like people judging me.